I shouldn't be alive

I believe there have been many times where by logic, truth, fact I should have died. I believe that there is no scientific reason to explain certain things. It goes against common sense and worldly fact that I am here .I should be dead. It's not possible that someone can escape death, time and time again unless someone or some higher power greater than us all intervenes. A force greater than mankind exists and watches over us all. You too should have died that day. But you didn't. Yes you, God had a different plan for you. You still breathe,you are still kicking. You did not kick the bucket. You aren't pushing daisies. He gave you life.He gave you more time to do what you should. Bless . Touch. Teach. Pray. Love. He refused for you to come home earlier than you should have. So he let you stay because he saw something in you that he knew the world needed to know. It is the reason why you are still here. It's why God will let you wake up tomorrow. And the day after, and the day after that. And then one day. He will see you have worked hard and be proud of you. And say you can come back home. He has a reward for you when you walk towards the gates leading home. He says he will prepare a banquet where all your enemies will see you.

Yes, you asked for forgiveness so he gave it to you. He says he will even fill your cup to the brim. You will sit at his right hand .

You. With all the times he saved you from death. You have the knowledge that he will reward you when he calls you to come home. Knowing all this, you still choose the other journey. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .. You choose the easy road. One where you can do and say what you want to who you want with no regard for them. Or yourself. You choose to cause harm to yourself in the name of having fun and enjoying your youth. It's not like you don't know how to live a different life. He has an instruction book. A life manual for you to refer to. He even said you can ask him for advice if need be. . . . . . . . . . . . .
The Holy spirit is your constant tour guide in order not to get lost on earth during your stay.
But no, we don't like rules we don't want to do it that way. We would rather wait till something big happens like we look death in the eye and know we might not go through heavens pearly gates then only do we decide maybe I must change. Well whether or not you change. Know that he is alive. He is there for you and loves you. He may not love what you do. But loves all of who you are. I'm no preacher no but I am his child. And so are you. Now ,if you want to know what to do. Ask him. If you want to forget what you did. Ask him. If you wanna grow ask him. And when you are done asking . . . Tell the world what he said.